it´s hard to explain,
how all your words
is playing
with fire
in my
mind.

it´s hard to show,
how you anger
is in me,
and still hurting.

it´s so fucking hard to live,
when i hear you
scream in my head,
it´s hard so breath
when i remember the hardness of your arms holding me hard.

it´s hard to talk,
when I feel your hand
against my throat
and on the same time
love you,
for the one you justed to be.

it´s so damn hard to smile,
when i still can se it in
my mind
how you pushed me down
and hold me there
untill I started to cry.

I don´t wanna be in this memory,
I don´t wanna feel the fall,
how you pushed me against the wall.
I don´t wanna feel the helpless feeling i felt,


and i don´t want you to se,
how he
hurted me...
he is my past,you´re my now and you don´t hurt me,
you make me smile even if it´s hard.

I don´t want you to feel sorry for me,
I am just a person who loves the one I love to be.
I am just a person who loves life how fucked up it may be.

I can´t fogett
and I am still afriad,
I sometimes wanna disapear
and I push my self in to a corner
and shaking of fear.


but this is me,
I never, never and never cry
and I never, never and never wants to die.