Being a mistress when you want to be the love of their life.
It could have turned me insane if I didn't know my own value. But he showed me how it feels to be adored again. To have someone look at you like nothing else exists.

I want to give him the privilege to be with me, my beautiful and complicated brain, my young and fit body and eyes that make you feel like you entered the universe.
I feel like he deserves it.

I know he would be happy with me, but his age is scaring him away from me, believing that it would be a waste of my time to love and cherish him like he deserves to be loved. He is scared that I would have to give up things in life.
And if that is the lie he wants to live in and tell his fiancé, that's what I would let him do.

But please never stop looking at me like that, never stop undressing me with your eyes, never stop adoring me, never stop wanting me. I want you to want me forever. And I would probably never have what you give me right now. Even if you just give me glints and moments, no one by now was able to love me as you do. And you have probably ruined me for the rest of my life and everyone else. No one can be you.

The love of my life, the title of a mistress.