I´m sorry for the drama
but I swear
I never meant to harm you
never dreamt in my
wildest fantasies
that you were bent enough
to take me to my knees
fuck me up the ass without
so much as a "please"
or a good greasing
my wounds are still bleeding
even if the pain is receding
slowly receding

In the beginning there was
truth and a
sense of gears
falling into place, meshing
merging even if there was friction
but time showed that fiction
for what it was
the machinery slowed
ground to a halt
and ground us with it.
ground us with it
to flour without the bread
to show for it

all I can say is goodbye
goodbye, I am sorry
and
I forgive you as
I don´t want to regret a thing
not a single moment of pain
not a single moment of bliss
not the first scream
not that first kiss
not those sleepless nights
and above all
not this

never this