The cooling rain lets me breathe this morning,
as I open my doors to let you in
I've been waiting for you,
but truth is,
you've been here all along.
If I only open my eyes every once in a while you´re right there,
guiding me, loving me.
I feel you now, you´re in my tears, this release, this exhaustion.

I´m full only because I´ve so much to give.
And I want it all figured out already- like I always do
I have no patience and if I don't see immediate results I break down
At the same time, I feel you there, knocking, reminding me, that I´m here for a purpose larger than my impatience.

I need to cleanse myself, of all this water.
Otherwise, I might drown in my own emotions.
Becoming blind to all the light and joy that you bring.
You make me smile, you really do,
reminding me that life is not to be taken this seriously.

Always asking me why I imprison myself.
This time I answer
"I have to let go of that place
and those people
But they´re in my veins
I already feel the distance, yet they´re so close
Its been 2 years and I'm still griefing
Observing it as a weakness
But it was my family, my trauma, my only story"

My biggest illusion
because there is no pain.

You answer
"They´re part of you and you´re part of them
You always will be.
You´ve gone from being the seed to the root
You're still growing,
Give yourself time.

I´ll take you forward, you´ll make the leap,
I will go nowhere, I´ll love you eternally.
I´m proud of you. "