Death and pain, I'm the one left waiting. 
I'm the one who has to carrie the burdan of shame.

Yesterday I was standing in the rain, I was outside your window.
Staring into your apartment, you know the one filled with all the purple pain.
I closed my eyes, tried to recall the fun we had.
But all that I could remember was the anger we felt.
I could see the pain which was burried inside your beautiful blue eyes.

Memories of the night when I found you.
Your pale skin covered in blood, your eyes staring empty into the nothing we used to seek.
But your lips we're smiling, you looked like you'd found relief.

Next to you there was a letter with my name on it.
I read it, your last good bye.
You tried to explain, asked me for forgivness for leaving me alone with all the shame.

I hope you know, where ever you are, that I could never blame you.
I'm just sad that I'm left all alone with all the pain.