Mum ? in yesterday I talked to God.
Deep in my thoughts,
and do you know what?
I screamed at God so much.
Because God has left my heart .
And the answer he gave me was not enough.
God wants to talking to me but it is hard
God says That I need to try to take part
God is telling me that he has not left my heart !!
God says also that he has not disapear from my thoughts.
But I am still afraid of to feel this pain when it came.
And God? I have call your name once and twice
And I´m sorry for everything I have done.
I´m sorry for you and everybody around..
The only one I got is you and my mum..
and I have realize that I have been young.
And a little bit deeper in the under ground,
And look what I find, my friend.
I found myselves in the wonderland..
I found me in the wonderland..
But I wants to give up ..
Because it is to difficults and to hard..
But God is says that I am Not going to stop!!
But I wantS to give UP!!
I wants to do it, But I AM NOT GOING TO STop!!
And That I will not give up
everything God made me to do.
He said he wants me To see the true just a little bit
even if I have´nt a clue about it.
I´m going to start from the begining
because everything has a meaning.
I got to listen to my feelings before someone is stealing it from me one day.
I don´t know why God told me about which way was the best way..
But I thanked him alot because God is all I got
and honestly I felt better after this letter
I felt better with you together with me and
I wrote to you Mum and to God in heaven so you could tried to see that
I want you to know that I am always going to love you for ever
in my secret fantasy.
2014-01-01