Im tired
Deeply, exhaustingly tired
Clouds from yesterday's storm are still raging in my head
The raindrops portray tears beneath uncertain eyes

Im scared
Shivering, cold and blue
with echoes of betrayal all around my view
Grey are the clouds that conceal what is real

Of course I am afraid
With monsters in my head
That throw a long black shade
on anything that makes me smile
If even for a little while

There is a light
Or so they tell me
When I am too scared to fight
When I am boiling with feelings and fear
Of endless darkness that exists everywhere

I see you
I promise that I do
But to open my heart
And risk to fall apart
Expose you to what's real
Is not a great appeal

Of course I am afraid
With monsters in my head
That throw a long black shade
on anything that makes me smile
If even for a little while

Months have passed and here I am
Standing on my feet with a shaky voice
I met the wave and so I swam
I didn't really have a choice

You are the reason that I try
You are what makes me feel alive
I know I shouldn't say too much
But I am a wreck who cannot lie

Of course Im crying
With monsters in my head
Whom make me feel like I am dying
Make lies of all the things you said
Of course I know it isn't real
But I can't change how I feel