you
make me smile
and I
don't even know why
(or do I?)
but I
sometimes  think about you
even though I know
I shouldn't

but I can't help it
can't stop these feelings
and I wonder
what the fuck
is wrong with me

probably everything

I know I shouldn't feel this way
so I try to think about other things
like the olympics
or what movie I should watch next

but in the middle of the night
when I lie in bed
turning around
when I can't sleep
I think of you
and I smile
even though I shouldn't
but I do
I can't deny it
I smile

like a fucking idiot

and it's all because of you
but the thing is
you'll never ever know about it
even if you ask me about it

because it wouldn't be the right thing to do
to confess all these feelings
for you
so I won't
I'll keep it all a secret

and from a distance
I'll watch you
become happy
with someone else
and although it'll hurt
I'll be happy
for you