Promise to never hit me again
never ever again

How could you just stand there
I saw in your eyes how you saw my death

how could you just sit there
on your side of the computer screen
and read how I sank in my anorexia

how could you fuck my fest friend
and show the hinkies openly

how could you call me a whore
when it was you who took my soul as payment
for the sex you had with that fat creature

I was always perfect to you
you were the one who said it actually
you couldn't have asked more of me

no you couldn't
because I stood there every night when you took out
your anger at me
I did what you asked for and thought I didn't diserve more

you got one chance to apologize
you said fucking whore and left

you had one chance to love me forever
there's nothing left
only an empty shell

I know, we were both mean and we both ended up
in a court room
maybe that's what happends when Romeo and Juliet
are in a modern communty

maybe it's them who are made for each other who are each other's
unhappyness
maybe there's no one you hurt more than the love of your life

next time you're mad
hit the wall instead
next time you want to kill me
scream in a pillow instead

next time you want revenge
murder me instead of sleeping with my friends

how could you just stand there in your bedroom window
you must have heard my screams from the hospital
when the chock let go of me
you must have heard me
when I ran up in the middle of the night and screamed
how could he do this to ME

to me

but you closed your curtains and laid next to the slut
who had been visiting me the same day

I liked to see how bad it hurt in your eyes
your hate for me
I think it's a lie
I've always been able to tell when you're lying

you're as bad as me
you're as extreme
you make the same damage
I cut my virginity briefs apart which meant the world to you
I took the photos down and deleted your memory with starvation

and you took everything I was
everything I wanted from life
everything that had happend
and everything that could have happed

how could you do that
to me

I knew you could do so to others
I've always known that
but never
to
me