watching you
have your life
without mine

accepting the fact
that on the other side
of the wall
you are
laughing
without me

I want to be
beside you
laughing

like I was
in your life
but now
it's not like that
I't doesn't work like that

I can't laugh
and pretend
that I haven't failed
everything I tried

like I'm worthy
of trying again

and besides,
you're fine
laughing without me