I remember the collaps
/ I will always remember the collaps /
And getting spasms in my chest whenever I exhaled your name
All the letters within you
Constituents of your being
And all the corners of your body
Wanting to grab you - yell at you
“TAKE EVERYTHING - JUST FUCKING TAKE IT ALL;
I DON’T WANT IT ANYMORE --
... it doesn't matter anymore
It just doesn't matter"
But as it goes I kind of recovered
Got my act straight
Inhaling every syllable of the birth mark on your hip
And the one just below your neck;
The scar on your left index finger;
The way you smelled and tasted;
These things I traded to me, from your body to mine
That I keep as northern light above my head
And the rest
Falls from my shoulder;
Bursts into flames on its way down
And I leave it to die with the dust
Because I can’t go on
If I would always keep the “where we went wrong’s”
burning inside my heart